Vertical

Today I got my hair shortened in the back and re-damaged...ahem, re-chemically straightened (some pent up frustration with my past curls is evident here). I went to math class and was called out in front of the class for being "too quiet" and was to answer the question: which line would x=10 be on? Some kid in the class said "horizontal" so I let the answer hang in the air and then answered "horizontal." The professor said "No, don't listen to them, they don't know what they're talking about...look in your notes" I turned and flipped nervously, all eyes on me, and I wasn't even really looking in my notes more than I was panicking and hoping the answer would come up and slap me in the ass.Finally, with direction, I found the notes and answered "Vertical" WOW REALLY INDIA? THERE WERE ONLY TWO ANSWERS IT COULD HAVE BEEN AND YOU GOT THE FIRST TRY WRONG AND THEN LOOKED THROUGH YOUR NOTES FOR 6 WEEKS TO FIND THE OTHER 50%????!!!
Anyways, I was slightly red and embarrassed, but then got over it quite quickly. Pick on the girl with the glasses why don't ya?
It wasn't a bad day, but I've got lots of reading to catch up on and my room to clean so that some guy can come measure the floors tomorrow. This basically means that I'll be piling everything on my bed.
Also, I've been waiting for that "breaking point" I've been talking about to hit me in the gut, but even when I tried to force myself to cry for good measure, one tear trickled and then I was over the notion of crying for no reason. I won't cry because I've lost my oldest friend, I'll just know that what happens happens and I was better for separating myself from the situation. I'll be independent and move on and she can have all the boyfriends in the world.
243. Rachel McAdams
244. tomato sauce
245. iTunes
246. coconut milk or "drink"
247.  having a weird sense of contentment/hopefulness despite unfortunate happenings
248. Here
249. the drive-thru baristas at Starbucks
250. telepathy (yeah, I sorta believe in it)
251. being able to see the moon
252. Vitamin E oil
253. "Someone Like You" by Adele coming on in the hair salon full of women and the room sort of going quiet in its presence
254. warm water
255. worrying ---- waiting-----adjusting---loving
256. when a little white lie works and gets me out of trouble
257. having a group of three girls see me and call me a hipster when they think I can't hear them and me silently punching them in the boobs with in my mind.
258. cutting ties that need to be cut
259. carrying heavy things and not needing help
260. smooth skin
261. the thought of packing up boxes full of my things and going off to create something new.
262. the DMV surprising me with a letter containing a $132 registration fee and me just laughing at it.
263. ATMs
264. the smell of sand
265. trying new things
266. catching my mom watching "Toddlers in Tiaras" and her threatening to call child services on their ass
267. dogs
268.laughing at ridiculous people when in the past I would have dwelt on their judgments and absences.
269. guys who can sing in high-pitched yet soft voices
270. Emma Watson
271. nonfat vanilla latte on a rainy day
272. The Gypsy Den
273. "mint green sorbet" nail polish
274. tights
275. that first glance
276. uncontrollable smiles
277. real people
278. gay marriage - that's so so so so exciting! It's about damn time non?
279. the smell of my dad's Jeep (one of my few childhood memories of him)
280. blueberry muffins & everything bagels with cream cheese
281. getting undressed with my middle school yearbook opened on the floor and being embarrassed that all my past fellow classmates were seeing me naked.
282. reassurance
283. free education in Austria
284. all the stupid-as-shit shows that come out of TLC
285. tortilla chips
286. wanting so badly to raise my hand when my math professor asked who in the room was a vegetarian
287. windshield wipers