Friday, July 6, 2012

I Heard it on the BART

For something i was so sure of, it ended up being based off of a memory that had me tangled in its foamy and hazy embrace. I had spent the day lost in the city- i went from plane, to air-BART, to BART, to bus, to bus, to crying in front of a RadioShack in the middle of somewhere i didn't know.if anything, my instincts and rapidly draining phone battery told me that i was screwed. So, i called a cab which drove passed me the first time and when he finally came back for me minutes later, i hated the city- more than anything i hated the people i was going to be living with IN the city. I hated them for abandoning me and not understanding that i had never taken public transportation before in my life/.. EVER, even in small town SC. After sleeping on a couch in the eerily quiet Sunset District, i realized that i couldn't learn to love it because i had already found myself a home away from home... Berkeley. Then, i was on the BART back to that home and all the while i worried that i would take the train too far or it wouldn't stop where i needed to get off. I worried until i observed the girl sitting across from me-she was reading a book with "Berkeley City Library" printed across the top of its pages and i knew i would end up where i needed to be. So, i made the decision to be here as i rode back on that BART, more so, when i rode the escalator up at the downtown Berkeley station. It felt good, and i didn't have to worry about taking the 28 to Quintara and then boarding the 66 and then the 58. I was just here. I could walk pretty much wherever it was i needed to be. The weather was bright and hot. I felt okay for one real time since i've been here. No, my friends weren't there to make everything even better, but i guess that's how i really knew anyway. I can make it if i want to. I'm so excited to be here, to not be so concerned with how far away things are, how crowded, how safe, i can just be here and be happy because i want to.

1 comment:

  1. berkeley has always felt like home! maybe it's the college town feel with an urban vibe, idk, but things feel so much more simple and relaxed (especially when it comes to the bart; downtown berkeley to macarthur/coliseum is so much easier than sf's crazy routes). yumma

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