Today

What was today? Today was being observant and wishing I was other places. Today was nostalgic of one of the best times of my life in a place with complete strangers and best friends. Today was wanting to cry and sensing the onset of Halloween. Today was biting my lip, trying not to laugh so loud in the midst of a silent class. Today was looking down while walking through a group of boys who hushed at my intrusion. I wanted to run today, I wanted to pretend like everything is just a dream and that I'll wake up to something different. Today was a lump in the throat and romantic-comedy day. Today was falling in love with Paul Rudd and wishing for a romance. Today was looking at pictures and wondering why I hadn't been born ten years earlier. Missing, today was missing and lingering on raspy, beautiful voices. Today is pretending that I can play guitar in front of an adoring audience and today is pretending I live in London. Today is saying the less-hard farewells to the college-bound kids. Today is realizing that it's not so bad, but it could be better. Today I want to get everything back, pack it away, and carry it forward on my back. Today was today.